I've learned so much about myself in the last few days, I'm beginning to discover the merits of introspection. Saying goodbye to Sidharth over the phone was so hard. I mean, here's a guy who I've known since we were both geeky kids in shorts and size 2 shoes, wearing round house badges - more than two thirds of our lives. And, there are guys I've known even longer. Not that time itself is a factor. There are people who I've known for a couple of years or less who mean so much to me. Its one of life's great ironies, you spend so much time with some people, and just as you are getting to know them, they aren't there anymore. Or maybe its just that, while they're there, you take them for granted. I now realise I'm not the stoic I thought I was. Emotion is a powerful thing. And, when you're overcome by it, you start to think differently. So many people gone, and so many yet to go. Its hard to come to terms with the fact that we'll never sit together in the same class and have fun anymore. From here on in, I'll spend my days in a completely alien environment, surrounded by unknown faces. Suddenly I feel so alone. And even the tube has failed me.
I'm so thankful for having Gaurav's company in Jain. Don't know what I'd do without him. The way things stand, I don't think I'll ever make new friends there. But I've been wrong on that count before. However, just as important as making new friends, is keeping the old. That is what I must strive to achieve.
I've been playing the same two songs repeatedly all day.
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls & Soldier of Fortune - Deep Purple
There's something so gloriously melancholic about them, especially the former. Wish I'd heard it a little earlier.